Last night I was thinking about this in relation to a mission the Lord has given me for this coming week. It's not as momentous or dangerous as the one God sent Moses on, but it is just as intimidating and just as much over my head. As was the case with Moses, the Lord has been preparing me over the years for particular tasks, but my own qualifications are not part of the equation.
The Lord granted Moses his request in one respect. He let Aaron do the actual speaking, but Moses would give him the words. I'm not likely to find an Aaron. But God's way of handling it will be the same. With me He is leaving out the middleman and saying (verse 15), "I, even I, will be with your mouth... I will teach you what you are to do."
While I was talking to God about this last night, I heard myself say something that may reveal one of the things going through Moses' own mind when he asked to be let off the hook:
"I don't want to mess this up."
Humanly speaking, I am more than qualified to mess this up. Yet, this mission is God's. All He has asked is my willingness. Which means, He has already taken my weakness into account, and it fits the bill exactly. If I were strong here, humanly speaking, I would get in His way.
Please pray for me. Pray that I would remember who I am in Christ: just a branch, useless in her own right, but intimately fused to her almighty Vine. His will be done.
I will rather boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may dwell in me. 2 Corinthians 12:9 |