"Please don't take this the wrong way, but You don't know what this is like. You don't know what it's like NOT to have the resources to help someone You love."
A short time later, these words came into my head, clear as a bell:
"You're right."
This calmed me. God understood -- He really saw my frustration.
The next morning soon after I'd opened my eyes, I remembered His "You're right." Only this time I caught the full sense of what He meant:
"You're right. I don't know what it's like not to have the resources to help someone I love. My resources are boundless."
Ouch. How tiny my faith is.
Does this mean I should begin offering people money I don't have? No. But it means that when I'm sure God has told me something, I can believe it. Taking a $30 leap of faith next time might be a good place to start.
I have relatively little trouble stepping out in faith in areas where I've never been hurt, or where my wounds are completely healed. When I am finally able to rest in His all-sufficiency in my areas of deepest pain, the healing will be profound. For I will have learned first-hand that His resources are boundless.