As I fell asleep last night, I heard the sound of extremely high winds -- the northwestern swath of Hurricane Sandy, which has been pummelling the U.S. eastern seaboard. This storm has had me worried -- especially the forecasts of heavy rain combined with very high winds. I may explain why at a later date.
What I did not hear last night were heavy rains, originally forecast to be 40-50 mm. There was rain, but primarily here this was a wind storm. Rain and wind are still coming, but in lesser amounts than initially predicted.
So this morning when I opened my eyes, I felt a calm, not a sweet peace but more the calm that one feels waking up the morning after surgery. The Lord was deeply at work in me as I slept. I don't know yet what He did, but whatever it was, it humbled me and brought me to an attitude of quiet reverence and submission.
As mentioned, the Lord awakened me today with a song -- some of the verses of which matched in many ways what I was feeling. Not a song of joy, but a brutally honest song, an urgent prayer for restoration and wholeness. I'm facing hurdles and uncertainty that have me feeling lost, alone, and afraid. That He would awaken me with this song told me that He was not only intimately aware of my pain, but that He was my uncompromising Healer in the midst of it.
Here's the song. It's by All Sons and Daughters, a group who seem to be very on track spiritually, and who are not afraid to speak openly about human pain and spiritual struggles. If only we were all so unafraid to be real.
YouTube video "Reason to Sing"
I love You, Lord. I trust You. I give You everything. Again I ask, show me how this all works.
If there be a victory, You sing it over me now. Your peace is the melody. You sing it over me now.