Today at one point, I began to get very angry with myself. There's more to this story than I'll go into, but let's just say a spiritual battle was going on, and I was playing right into the wrong side of it.
I went into my room and tried to clear my head. For some reason, a picture came into my head of me, lying wounded on the shore. I pictured the Lord standing behind me on the sand, and the captain of the "other" army facing us. I was expecting some kind of struggle or confrontation. Instead, I heard myself saying a word. As soon as I heard it, my whole body relaxed; I felt deeply loved, and safe. There was no confrontation about to take place -- the battle has already been won.
Only Jesus and I remained on the shore.
The word wasn't in a language I know, and I was curious to know what it meant. Was it Hebrew? I don't speak Hebrew, but it sounded like it might be. I Googled it. It took two tries at the spelling, but I found it:
chadath
If it's the same word, it's Aramaic. It means new.
Yes, my Jesus. New. All brand new.
This is how You see me, because this is what I am, because of You.
...End of break -- lots more to do.