Reality check: I am not Oswald Chambers. Being "so much in contact with God that you never need to ask Him to show you His will" doesn't quite describe where I am at this point. I am becoming ever more synchronized to Him (this is wonderful), but there are in fact times when I still need to ask Him to show me His will.
Mine is not yet entirely "a life of freedom and liberty and delight." It has many moments and even days like this, but it also has elements that feel anything but free. Life has left me with clean-up to do, and there are times when it gets to be too much.
The "delightful friendship" is coming along. I do indeed delight in Him. He is my Song, day and night. I adore You, I adore You, worthy and perfect King. Let my life show how much I adore You.
The truth of it is, Oswald doesn't seem to have ever been much of a worrier. Even when he was a small child and hadn't yet fully surrendered to the Lord, his faith was so extraordinarily beautiful and uncomplicated that it amazed people. My penchant for worrying over the years has no doubt amazed some people as well.
I am relearning, and I am digging out from a long-term mess full of abuse and destruction. This is not something Oswald had to deal with. I love him dearly, and he is a highly prized mentor to me, but we are from different worlds.
King David and I are also from different worlds, but I can relate much more easily to him sometimes. He wore his heart on his sleeve. When he had a decision to make, he asked the Lord directly, and got a direct response. (< Please note, Jesus.)
I'm not King David, I'm not Oswald, I'm not anyone but myself. Jesus has my full attention now, and is discipling me. It often hurts. There are times when I get upset about this, and He gently reminds me, "But you're a disciple."
I will make that decision, and yes, He will check me or correct me if I get it wrong. He loves me, and this is all I really need to know. A friend sent me a poster the other day that said, "He loves me. The beautiful, holy, Creator and Rescuer of everything, loves me."
Yes. And that's the whole thing. The details are His to sort out as He sees fit.