O Lord, one thing amazes me, and that is my almost total deficiency in letting Thee manifest Thyself and Thy beauty in my outward life. Let the beauty of the Lord our God be upon me this day. (April 20) |
Is this what happens when a soul grows ever closer to the Lord in sweet abandon and faith? In becoming caught up in the Lord's beauty like an un-self-conscious child, does one lose awareness of the uplifting effect this union has on others? I hope so. I would love that to be me one day. I know right now this is not me, because much of what people around me hear is about what isn't and what has to be changed and what has failed. The release to the sort of Christ-freeing freedom that rings through Oswald Chambers' works and life story cannot come from me, but from the Lord in me. Perhaps this will begin in earnest as I look through His eyes at the what isn't and what has to be changed and what has failed, believing like a joyful child that all is possible through my Lord, and that He is the Master of what is and isn't necessary, and I can rest in this.